soooo inspiring...how can i stop? NO I CAN'T.

when i see you sky as a kite
as high as i might
i can't get that high
the how you move
the way you burst the clouds
it makes me want to try

when i see you sticky as lips
as licky as trips
i can't lick that far
but when you pout
the way you shout out loud
it makes me want to start
and when i see you happy as a girl
that swims in a world of magic show
it makes me bite my fingers through
to think i could've let you go

and when i see you
take the same sweet steps
you used to take
i say i'll keep on holding you
my arms so tight
i'll never let you slip away

and when i see you kitten as a cat
yeah as smitten as that
i can't get that small
the way you fur
the how you purr
it makes me want to paw you all
and when i see you happy as a girl
that lives in a world of make-believe
it makes me pull my hair all out
to think i could've let you leave

and when i see you
take the same sweet steps
you used to take
i know i'll keep on holding you
in arms so tight
they'll never, never let you go

love this version so much. very inspiring.

when i was young

[ i eight senses ]

LIFE & what is dear to me

APPLE

READS

AN OAK TREE

single malt

( JAZZMASTER you have to wait )

LOVE

September 13th

........thank you my dearest Ruf

at the moment....with SUB POP

BAND OF HORSES

www.myspace.com/bandofhorses

FLEET FOXES

www.myspace.com/fleetfoxes

refreshing my ears & thoughts

MIRRORBALL [elbow]

All down to you, dear
Everything has changed

I was looking for
someone to complete me

ONE DAY LIKE THIS [elbow]

stage one.

errr...ok. Bit boring but it does help on your marriage preparation. Say, should you go for a course before you getting married? Yes, you should. Well, the choice is yours, and please; for the sake of God, don't go there and start a debate. Oh...and introduce yourself as a lawyer instead your name. Fuckin twat!

Clement Jonas Jimel & Benjamin Ujang James Gumbang

a guy who should built a custom guitar
a guy you should dig his guitar playing
a post modern Bidayuh Tribe embark for the new future

a guy who should write a book
a guy you should dig his work
a post-klassic Iban Tribe now into Elbow

the bones of you

this is not a kiss ass shit

get a fuckin tube! let 'em burnt!

midnight wine

one borneo

clarice john matha

Ruf Luv Chia...kan?

stars belong to us as god speed your love passing thru the nebula 'till our final omega

Ave Maria

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

am not that religious, i admit. i don't say i don't believe. but one thing for sure, i adore her as a Holy Mother. She inspire me to smile in my darkest hour.

[...........]

ambient shoegazer

slowdive in thin atmosphere

U Boat!

[shot by Noemi @ Ruf Chia as what Ujang G. Benjamin James did somewhere...]

my kind of honey, how about yours?

It's not all about "Creep" please...every words in each every song meant so much to me. Pointing out their honesty, sincerity, energetic, hope & a pure drive from the band itself. It's raw. It makes you want to be, in a band. A depressing-ballad.

Stylistic-noise-dance beat-unromantic-fuzz-break beat-fuzz-loud dark screaming feedbacks
what can i say...i love 'em
sooo...unforgiving
"i wanna die just Jesus Christ...i wanna die just like JFK..." it's fucking classic!
TEENAGE LUST!

going after you

why not super modern-electro-gadgets? big boys toys with cocky dreams & cocky words? or a woman magnet toys with big show off? what a loser bastard.
well...that's what makes you & me different.

a big fan of Telecaster, still...

thoughts

no one is perfect. signs doesn't work well-it's playing number & figures. pluto was wrong. sucking young blood? it has to be saved. good advice is welcome. cruel intention? better start digging your own grave. confusion? it's a part trying to make Market Garden a success. cheap propaganda? cheap tricks? gets cheap value & cheap success. lost? there's always home. it's calm, warm & love. Rome wasn't built in a day. the collapse of the Roman Empire was a catastrophe. by power & ENVY. analogue? go through the hard way & there's a risk to start all over again. but the final result? it's warm & beautiful. telling stories doesn't make you win a war. you fight, struggle, there's death & sadness.

Knife's out

so much pain inside
so much hatred inside
so much trust & love given

blind
idiot
stupid?
cheated!

less attention?
neglect?

millions of excuses
so-called true love awaits!

hungry wolf has been waiting outside
waiting
wild red eyes
dripping sugary saliva
aaaaahhhh......let me come inside you

a dog always be a dog

the gun need to shot

the history is repeating it self again

GOD have mercy on us

Love Will Tear Us Apart

When the routine bites hard
And ambitions are low
And the resentment rides high
But emotions won't grow
And were changing our ways,
Taking different roads
Then love, love will tear us apart again

Why is the bedroom so cold
Turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed,
Our respect run so dry?
Yet theres still this appeal
That we've kept through our lives
Love, love will tear us apart again

Do you cry out in your sleep
All my failings expose?
Get a taste in my mouth
As desperation takes hold
Is it something so good
Just can't function no more?
When love, love will tear us apart again

Art

Gustave Doré illustration to the 1884 edition of Edgar Allan Poe's The Raven: Sorrow for the lost Lenore

Top 5 inspired by....

GOD

MY FATHER

ERWIN ROMMEL

ROBERT SMITH

THOM E. YORKE

visit for the 2nd time

The Tourist

happy songs for happy people

Mogwai (Scottish rock band from Glasgow, Scotland) LIVE at KLCC Hall 5 21st Jan 2008. Starts at 20:00hrs sharp. Another great event by Soundscape Records Malaysia. Yes, i'm not their biggest fan, but i do listen and bought their albums (CD aaa...not downloads ok) before. Well, there are a few good songs that i like but not all of them of course. Again, how can i missed them here, at Kuala Lumpur (besides, it's my off day). And this would be their first, to perform live at Malaysia. I've missed Explosions In The Sky before, thanks to my duty roster; i won't missed this one for sure. Basically, i want to enjoy myself and to have fun together with friends. So, there was me, Reynold (Mogwai's big fan), Clement, Keneng@Nexson and Rob (Gary's housemate from London).

Nexon, Clement, me, Robert and Reynold.

Noemi came along with us, but she had to go somewhere else. Well, it would be too noisy for her...unless it's a House Music kind of thing...

"charging"
we had to treat ourselves with some Scottish whiskey since we'll be watching a Scottish band (an excuse...alu lah juak)

"Tukang Sadong"

more beer please....

To be honest, i can't recall his name...the main guitarist....i had to call Reynold before i say "Hi" to him. I was a bit tipsy too (more than that actually)..."STUART! STUART!" says Rey on the phone. "Where are you?" i asked him, "Am on my way home" says Rey. "YOU WHAT?!".......

we had to take photo with the guy in Black...nice tie by the way

Meet new friends too..!

Another new friends...

Finale

I've really had a good time that night...nothing but happy common people enjoying themselves...a good start for 2009. It could be worse if we're at Glastonbury(i wish). After the concert, we went to George & Dragon; an English pub for a couple of pint. I think i had too much booze and got sick the next day. I should stop drinking. Naaaahhhh....! It made me happy. Always. And, i'm NOT AN ALCOHOLIC!

welcoming the Ox, the Rats are leaving

Here comes the NEW year again. Hopefully, it brings happiness, more joy, good health and luck. Things are seems moving, as good as ever. More challenges, tough road i guess. But that's the beauty of life, lots of fucking surprises. Rock n Rolla.

2008 wasn't that very pleasant. Despite all the great moments. Too slow and no movement and changes around. Such a dirty rats. Politics was useless. But the music and art scene were getting bigger and better at home. It left remarkable memories and experiences.

• you see something that you don't want to see
• you heard something you don't want to hear
• cheated/back-stabbing cowards
• chaos
• self propaganda/fucking twat
  
• high cost of living
• no honesty
• recycle talk
• greed
• hypokrites
• poison minded voices
• food prices
• death

art

"The Cup of Death" (1885)
By Elihu Vedder (American artist, 1836-1923)
An illustration for the Rubáiyát of Omar Khayyám, stanza XLIII:
'So when the Angel of the darker Drink
At last shall find you by the river-brink
And, offering his Cup, invite your Soul
Forth to your Lips to quaff - you shall not shrink.'

mooo!

SMILING KILLER WITH A GOLDEN GUN IN HAND

MOUTH FULL OF FISHES/WASH OUT WITH SOAP

SLEEPING WITH LEPRICONS

THE PRETENDER

RE-CYCLE-MAN

RTM Kuching Sarawak Redfm 30th Dec 2008

standby mode

posing jap...

here we go

Telebury's final Radio Interview and LIVE broadcast for 2008 at RTM Kuching Redfm 91.9 with DJ Vishnu (please dig him at myspace). Since, we were there in Kuching for holiday, so might as-well we do the interview and have fun. Sam, Aja and Gary of course, they were at Kuala Lumpur. Again, last minute...biasa lah... Me, Reynold and Steve came around 8:51:43pm, Clement was somewhere at 4th Mile as he played for his band Evenstarr for another Live shows supporting Yuna. He came a bit later...otherwise, it would be dull if it's just only me and Rey (kopi anan statement). Telebury's Live acoustic, would be sounded better with 3 guitar rather than 2 (hey, Clement's guitar line man..err kopi anan again). Steve was our un-official photographer, P.A and Bodyguard (Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!).

serious radio

bla..bla..bla...

BBC HardTalk scene...again, Clement at serious mode

nebula & overdrive

with DJ Vishnu Redfm

the most important is, we had fun that night...Thank Vishnu and REDfm Kuching. Maybe an Iban Station next time huh? That would wicked! We went for supper later and had a jam session. The MOSKOW experiment. Finally to RUAI pub...Yeah! BBQ Spider-pig & Beer.